Monday, May 19, 2008
I feel rather frustrated and I cannot get to bed. I got to face a battle field tml. I dun understand why there are unfairness happening in our life yet I feel so helpless. I feel rather helpless this time, the kind of anger is really burning in me. I cannot say much yet I want to vent out yet I have to control.
she knows that I was treated badly yet she only ask me to pray lol. I cannot blame her but I can see she really a peace maker. Thank God for her la, if not I will be ... unsure how to describe my life.
I approach pple for help yet the solutions are either bear with it or fight on. I am unsure which is the best of all. God if you are reading my blog now, pls bless the righteouness child who seek for justice.
However usually those who fight for their right tends to die early lol, I nt sure u all agree.. sometimes they are remembered for their deeds and unlike those wicks who being living happily or wealthier in life.
I am pissed with her for saying that life is unfair thus we will face such treatment. Even though life is unfair y should I be the one answerable to this. Why?anyone can tell me why? Even colleagues can be so cautious with words, there are no real friendship at all..everything seem so fake. Am I going to be fake too?Everyone is saying you are brave in front of u but behind I believe that certain gossiping might be hurtful to ears. God pls continue to bless me the courage to survive on for another 2 mths. I need the strength and courage to move on...
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9:48 AM
Thursday, May 01, 2008
Today I went online to search on SIM. Currently, I have no ideas what I want too..Should I going for a ACCA course better or hoping miracle to enter local university. Life is really tough outside. I want to stop at diploma level. But I was encouraged by many pple to study further if I have the ability to do it.
My simple-minded lao ma alway say the same things "ah ya..you can't make it de?I think you stop at your current level is good enough."I never blamed her for what she had commented, she is just a simply women or a housewife without the real knowledge of what is happening outside or I guess she worrid that I might not be able to handle my study stress.
Sometime, I feel that I am rather ambitious but at times I hear a voice telling me that you must not stop at this level. Neither do I want to stop but every choice I make I have to think carefully or in another words the decision or plan I make I must not have regret.
You all can consider me lucky or have alot of freedom. But inside me I don't feel like growing up lol. But I have to grow due to the environment and circumstances that is happening daily.
Entering corporate world will change a person.. even a local firms do have such pressure already...
I praying hard to GOD what should I do too...And I realise how fortunate to be a full time student when I was at work. Anyway,I really have no ideas...few more hours to next day. I gonna face another new challenging assignment soon. All the best to me...
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8:03 AM
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Hi all my beloved FRENZ lol... I am bk in action... I finally revamp my blog..
Tired ..finally finished my work at changi.. YEAH..anyway tml is Labour day a great day for me to REST. update more...Anything can tag me :p
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9:42 AM
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
I saw le...waited years..rather wierd we saw each other yet just like stranger. The feeling is shocking plus maybe past flashes at that point of time. Not sure what the feeling called. Let go fully and totally forget could be the best medicine.Sometime pple say that loss of memories for certain things might be good. I am insomina now not sure who to confide yet tml is another busy day.Life for me is work and study, since meaningless yet that life ba.Now even the daily expenses increasing nt sure able to cope ma?I praying hard I can get my car licence once and for all.
Sometime I really don't understand myself either. I let down alot of pple who treated me well. Some might be killed in silent when I am not sure that I am the one who is hurting them. I feel so insecure neither can I let them feel safe. Why I feeling that.. I want to move forward yet so bothered by alot of things. Ma say that life is nv easy yet I nv confide much to ma either. Crying can solve problems?I don't think so either. In blog I can type all sort of thinggys maybe this is the way I de stress ba:)
Today learnt parallel parking, what a suck day..totally cannot mk it. I can do the parrallel parking yet I cannot explain then my instructor keep nagging and scold from the start of the lesson till the end. I only reply "orh","sorry" jux those few words yet in my heart I feel like scolding him. Yet I cannot shift my focus to debate with him cause I am driving on the road dun wanna die with him. And this instructor of mine so kiasi the foot always near the foot brake.Overall I feel that my driving skill gt improve lol not that worst compared to the past. I like to drive fast or somehow speed ba that why he abit fear. But I am sure that I am not reckless driver cause I manage to check blindspot etc.
I really dun noe what I want so bother and so confuse. Now really cannot slp..I did talk to some1 yet thing cannot solve..why why?As time past I dun feel like to speak up anymore le.Last time I feel like telling pple my thoughts and feeling but as I grow older things change. Pple are busy coping with life and none are free and at time I am the one who is nt free too. When I have the time to reflect might be too late le. Now listening to Polaris making me more sad.Graduating soon what else can I do?study or go work?Work I got money yet the salary sure LOW...haiz contradicting. Result suck too. go to those sing uni is like climbing mount everest. But I know there miracle de ba.. nt sure just strive and see ba
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10:44 AM
Friday, March 16, 2007
I watched smiling pasta I complete everything yeah is a very touching and nice show. I like watching all these kind of drama can really cheer me up whenever I am unhappy or sad.Sometime really envy the actor and actress in the story even though this kind of incident won't happen in really life.Sometime girls tend to hope to have for a fairy tale kind of love r/s. But in the real world there no such things after all. I feel rather disappointed with what I see ... I feel the pain my frenz is going thru. Somtime I dun understand why guys tend to forget a previous r/s so soon.While a girl still holding on and hoping of getting back with the guy. This kind of situations I had see umpteen times. I don't understand why some guy don't cheish what they have?I am not saying all guys are heartless yet this is what I have saw.I alway carry a hope that my r/s will be somehow very unique de.. but I believe it won't come true. I really believe a true love when a couple will go thru all kinds of obstacles and hold on to each other till the end ba.Then of course the guy will alway have the heart to protect the girl and of course the girl can play a part of understanding and kind of caring heart ba.
I saw my frenz shed the tears thru out the whole bus journey and the expression showing the pains and hope. unfortunately..everything change..she can't get bk with that guy anymore. I think the"polaris tears"by zhang dong liang really can express her feeling ba..
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6:25 AM
Monday, March 05, 2007
I dislike working at Bugis today really damn piss off, I am not sure whether issit I have been sitting alone at the entrance counter for too long or I have emotional unstable today. Anyway I hated the security guards at Bugis,they are not highly educated or what, they are totally unreasonable and rude. I suppose to knock off at 10 and go off since my in charge allow due to tomorrow morning shift at orchard. Unfortunately, my precious time was delay by these bunch of monkeys. I am very piss off and annoyed. If I tried to think positively and being understanding, they are stopping us from leaving might worry some staffs had carried some stolen goods in their bag and they are just performing their duties.
I still prefer life at Orchard cause time passes easier compared to Bugis. I miss niki she going off to taiwan soon. She the most friendiest and fun da jie. There rest average and not they warmth as her. GOD help me I have to work to repay my car debt even though my dad say will subsidise a portion yet I am the one continue paying. I am saving very hard right now for car practical debt and school reopen those sch debts. ARRRGGHH..If I am prettier marry off to rich man problem will solve le kekeke. I am dreaming again,anyway have bf like ..kekeke also gd. I will be the most xin fu de nu ren kekeke....Don't want to think those unhappy incidents le gd nite..BeE JIA YOU!!! A zai A zai!!!
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7:44 AM
Thursday, March 01, 2007
NOw somehow get to adjust to the environment of serving tai tai and get motivated when people slowly affirm my make up skill lol.Now I realize 1 thing that is enhance your eye by drawing eye liner keke..But I still prefer more to skin care and I afraid those winkles :(.
Not getting young like in the past, so as a grown up woman we must not be lazy but take good care of our skin.I saw several ladies asking "Hi girl, where your concealer?""Is this good to conceal dark circles, pigmentation, red spot etc!!!"I almost hear the same things daily.Warning; "Remember cleansing your face well and apply uv protection daily when you are out."that a important procedure too...
Anyway let leave my work aside,I some how feel like joining this industry lol,getting vain too. Last time dislike putting make up but now I have to put it daily and today I jux draw my own eye liner with metaclic black and blue eye shadow. Guess what I help a lady today who had a dull dark eye lip by applying blue eye shadow which the same colour I used on myself but the outcome is eeeeeeee, lol,I did it for her because she keeps looking at my eye shadow.Actually I just play around with colours but the blue look fine on me kekeke..
I also tried yellow/Gold with GREEN(my favourite colour)the outcome is great and I love it.But some tai tai don't really like it,anyway I have been working 2 morning shifts ...ohhhh help getting so exhausted but I feel this challenge is great. I will have my eyebrow shape by joanna on the 6 kekeke can't wait...free of charge wor.
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